How to make it through

 It’s interesting how even though we have been through shock and terrifying times with Taylor, it doesn’t make it easier to go through it again.  Over and over this past week I was so thankful that our hope was grounded in the truth that God is SO faithful.  I heard this song tonight and my eyes welled up with tears.  Did you know that God holds each of our tears in a bottle?  Watching our kids hurt, makes us hurt too!!  It makes us sad, and sometimes it makes us cry.  Our pain and tears mean something to God too.  He loves us so much, even more than we love our kids!  Which is a lot!!  He doesn’t like to watch us suffer… some may ask why there is suffering.  I don’t have the answers for that, I just know that until heaven, because we live in a fallen world, there will be suffering.  But you know what?  Compared to eternity, this life is a vapor!!  We have ETERNITY in perfect existence to look forward to!!  This is how —> “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him won’t perish, but has eternal life.  But God didn’t send his son into this world to condem the world, but to save the world through Him”.  Years ago when Taylor was diagnosed with neuroblastoma, Randy and I made a pact with each other and God that through the trial, it would only build our faith and make our marriage stronger.  I can testify that it did just that.  Going through the fire makes faith in the everyday so much bigger.  Does it make a health crisis easy? Goodness, NO. But there is a purpose in the pain, and a peace, such peace…that is truly supernatural.  It’s going to rip my heart to shreds to put Taylor through pain again, esp if her cancer is back… but I will never say anything but that God is good.  We are on the edge of our seats waiting for this biopsy result, but even if it’s cancer again my hope is in HIM.  “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.” <—- I am so looking forward to this day!!  I’ve been longing for Heaven and even more so now!


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